Monday, April 24, 2006
hi all.. haven been blogging these few dayz.. cuz i suddenly feel that my life's a total mess..firstly.. there's been some quarrel in the class which made me realise how selfish ppl can be.. i wonder if they were
in our group's shoes.. would they still think that way.. after all it's the last semester already.. can't they just be fair
to accept? if they think their group is already so poor in programming and all and thus can't accept another poor
programmer.. then what about us? we've been so quietly accepting these ppl for 2 years already.. despite that
we're just some average student in the class.. this has got ntg to do with programming skills.. it's just being fair to
just accept what ur classmates have been willing to accept for years.. can't they just do it for once?
secondly.. i broke up with him.. it all started becuz of some trivial matter.. but actually it's all the little little things
that accumulate to become a big thing.. i loved him so deeply once but it all went away.. those were the happy dayz
when we first started.. but now it's so different btw us.. i'm willing to put off those quarrels and all but i don't think
it'll still work out.. it'll surely happen again and again.. he's not willing to change for the better.. i'm just simply tired
of all these LOVE thing.. exhausted to the max.. my heart had split a thousand times and tears wearing me out.. i'm
just a simple girl trying to be happy everyday.. why can't i? i admit i've been wrong lots of times.. but i said sorry..
he didn't accept it.. he just keeps whining and all.. why can't he just say "okie" and just get back to being lovey
again.. why must he say all his heart out before he stops.. i've got no more strength to debate with him.. i just
wanna be able to hug him everyday.. the last thing he ask was if i loved him still but i replied no cuz i'm still not
sure of myself.. don't wanna waste his time,energy and money on me.. i've missed him so much every since we
broke up.. i hate nights cuz i'll missed him even more.. he's important to me!!
and also mayb becuz of all these things that trigger my skin allergy.. it's become worse.. can't wash my hair.. can't
take a spoon properly.. can't write.. can't type.. can't sleep.. itchy.. it's the worst state i've ever seen.. mayb i'm
going down to the poly clinic and wait whole day.. hopefully i can get referred to a specialist..
that's all for my miserable life.. hopefully someone gets a better life
Lovex
11:57 PM
