Tuesday, April 25, 2006
hi all
today was a relieve from all the tense up situation.. things had became better..
to prevent any quarrels from happening in the class.. our group accepted all the ppl.. at least we know that some ppl really have the heart to split the problem by accepting the ppl and try to regroup themselves.. while some are still as selfish as they are.. at least from this whole saga.. i know who really cares for other ppl.. and who only cares for themselves.. it's obvious..
Every man for himself
today was so embarrassing when the teacher was like identifying all the couples in the class and that josephine told the teacher me and Gabe.. then i felt so sour and really sad.. when Gabe suddenly told the teacher that we've broke up already.. then the teacher trying to save his face cuz he's the one asking.. he pretended as if he never hear what Gabe said.. and still try to be funny.. i tot .. ya.. it's the best way out of the whole embarrassing situation..
then.. the first time that i actually talked to Gabe.. he msn nudged me.. which i tot was a very bold step to take despite that we've broke up.. i've been avoiding him all the time.. which i think made the whole situation worse.. well.. so he nudged me.. and i replied with a nudge as well.. as Gabe promised to meet the his recommended personal mentor today.. i tot we should all go tgt..but sy went to meet 'S' and jo wanted to go home sleep.. although he did not ask me but i know he wanted me to follow him.. but i still pretended as if i didn't know and that i was going home.. but the very moment he board the train.. i felt very sour and worrying.. it's a feeling that i've never gotten before.. so i tot just heck the coldness and just msg him if he wanted me to go.. then.. i followed him all the way and met the person and all.. then he paid for my dinner.. cuz i shared with him the dinner actually.. i've got no appetite these few days.. dunno whats wrong with me.. i ate some of his noodles and that's it... my dinner! lolx.. i'm not hungry still.. yea.. then we went back tgt by bus.. and he said a lot of things and still cares about me and my poor fingers.. he try blowing cold air.. hoping that it'll be better.. that's the first time in all these months that i felt sweetness from him.. actually i didn't really hear what is he saying .. just immersing myself in that few minutes.. the only thing i heard was when he said.. "you're so quiet.. hope you're listening and heard what i said and think about it".. then i was recalling what he said when he's still talking.. lolx.. if i'm not wrong he told me to be more tolerant and change my mentality and all.. yea.. so we both got off the bus at his bus stop and waited for my transfer bus to my house.. i know he got lots of things to say to me but before he could.. my bus came.. so i didn't get to hear what he wanted to say.. but i guess as much.. and know what he wanted to say..
actually today's quite a not bad day.. hope my life gets better..
Lovex
11:46 PM
