Friday, March 03, 2006
No words can describe how i feel.. Confused maybe.
Nows realli not a good time to do it.. i don't wanna hurt anybody.. i realli don't want to.. but sometimes we have to try not be so soft hearted.. but i just can't bring myself to do it.. sometimes i wish that the person would not be so good to me.. he realli give his whole heart and life and everything he has just to see that i'm happy.. i've tried to appreciate everything that he's done for me.. but i have never been really relax and relieve of somethings thats realli bothering me.. but i rather keep it and bottle it inside than let it out cuz it will certainly harm and hurt someone that's realli good to me.. that realli cares for me..
maybe all these doesn't seem to mean anything.. cuz i realli don't know how to phrase the feeling inside me.. you won't understand.. nobody does.. but all in all.. i realli wish that i won't hurt anyone.. and that they will still stay by my side.. always..
our relationship was never steady and strong.. cuz we have no understanding between us.. you always thought that i'm always practical and materialistic.. and it depends if you buy me something.. i'll be happy.. and that i'll love you more.. but that's not the case.. seriously.. up till now.. i don't realli know if i love you.. that remains a question inside me.. that i've tried to answer for 2 years.. i realli don't know whats happening to me.. sometimes i realli miss you till i cry.. sometimes i just quarrel with you over trivial matters.. sometimes i just think that i'm realli a bad person.. and that i shouldn't treat you in a certain way.. maybe i'm realli bad.
Lovex
11:13 PM
